hi guys, tonight i wanna share bout my feelings now. one of the reason why i don't prefer choose "him" is....i still doubt his feeling. i admit, he's so care. he always hug me when i'm false and never forget kiss my head. and now i'm not just like him. but i love him too. but when i checked his phone tonight , i read his message with his ex. i read from the begin until the end. whoaaa i really shocked . so this is the example, cause i can't remember it all.
A : the man
B : his ex
C : me
B : hai, i'm really happy when u text me although only once
B : A, are u still close with C ?
A : not again, just so-so
B : how many times you go out with her?
A : i never counts it
B : more than 3 times ?
A : maybe
yap that is one of their conversation. i don't believe that he will said like that. he said that his relationship with me is not close ? then what the meaning of his kiss, his hug, his respect, his appologize, our dating, our memories, etc. and then, he said that "NOW, he and i rarely send message each other" . i'm too greedy right ? i have a boyfriend but i want to have him too . oke i know that's my fault. i don't have the right to getting jealous with him. i'm really confused, why he lied ? or only me who felt this feeling ? . oh god, if he just playing me. i'm very dissapointed . i'll never forgive him . it's too much. but i think he doesn't want to hurt his ex, cause she is still loving him " but on the other side it hurts me. it's really confusing, now i don't know what must i say to him. I'm just being cool . I'm sorry for my greed . hey light .
